On a Cloud

The calm before the storm

Things happened too fast for me this past August. Life has been busy -- in a good way. I didn’t expect it, but I was happy to have a shift in my routine. Apart from working from home and my creative pursuits, the routine has been too repetitive for me. It’s nice to find something else to do and to occupy my mind. And after a year of being at home all day, it's good to be around people again.

My old boss has asked me to come back to do some work for them and just two weeks later, I am back working at my former office. My job is different from what I used to do and is limited to a specific duty and I like it. I used to be a manager and as good as the pay was, I don’t want that kind of stress on me anymore. 

My goal recently has been to have a job that is not about climbing the corporate ladder. Luckily my former boss was able to offer something like that to me. My contract is only for a limited period, but it has been good so far. I’ll wait and see where things can go from here. I’m still keeping myself busy with other things on the side just to keep my options open. I like how the possibilities seem endless at the moment. I look forward to where life takes me from here.

There are still so many things that I want to explore creatively that I do not think I can achieve if I still had my old job. For some, it may seem a bit too late in the game to find what I want to do with the rest of my life. but I would like to think that I am doing it at a time that is best for me. If I had gone too fast on this path, I may not have been able to figure out what I truly wanted. And just because I’m “late” it doesn’t mean that I lost my way or that I  won’t be able to achieve my goals. I believe that we all have our paths to take, and each of us has our own designated time to reach our destination. 

I have been entertaining myself with all things Seventeen online. They have been busy and as a fan, I like it. But it doesn’t take away the sad fact that their military service is around the corner. There has already been an announcement that Jun taking time to act. And Jeonghan is enlisting soon. Both won’t be around for the next comeback and tour. 

Jeonghan is one of my favorites in Seventeen, and this news is sad for me. So much so that seeing all the content that has been coming out from him so far has been bittersweet for me. Then again, I have gone through this with BTS. I know time will fly by and he’ll be back before I completely miss him. 

Speaking of BTS, August was “scootergate” month. The issue of Yoongi drunk driving (?!) on a scooter and all this backlash was so upsetting. The media and antis online have been so cruel to him. I was so worried for Yoongi – honestly, I still am. The treatment given to him was way too much for what he had done. It broke my heart when I saw photos and videos of him going to the police station. It was not right and it was not fair. There has been no news about this again so far, and I’m just hoping that the worst is over and that he will be OK. 

The middle of the month had me and my family making the long drive back to the place where I grew up. I can’t call it my hometown because it doesn’t feel like home anymore. We traveled to see some of our relatives because of the death of a grandmother. She’s the sister of my paternal grandfather and the last among their siblings to pass away. It felt like the end of an era to know that all the elders from that side of the family were now gone. We used to live in the city where we went to see our relatives that day. It used to be all we knew. Now I don’t recognize it anymore. So much has changed. My fond memories of the place will be all we have of it. That place will never be the same for me again. 

The big things that have happened in the past month were things that I did not see coming. As someone who had been so used to staying in her comfort zone in the past, this was a bit unnerving. But I am learning to embrace change and to be more open to what life has to offer. I’m also learning to see the good in what would otherwise seem like negative circumstances in my life. At this point, anything can happen, and even the bad things can be turned into something good if we put our minds to it. 

What kind of month will September be for me? I have no idea. But I have the feeling that I need to stay positive and expect the unexpected.