On a Cloud

The first month of 2025 has had its lows but more highs helped to make it better. 

Work was busy, and it was not that pleasant for everyone. A former part of our work family had passed and I was a crying mess at her funeral. There were work challenges that stressed everyone at the office out. I decided to choose my peace and detach myself from the unpleasantness as much as I could. I do my work and go home. Whatever happens at work, I leave there. It’s healthier for me that way.

One thing I promised myself this year is to be more grateful. I decided to list down at least one thing I am grateful for during the day that I place in this square tin. I hope to fill it up by the end of the year. Maybe one day, if I am feeling down, I can look at it and remind myself that there are a lot of things to be grateful for. I've had rough patches this past month, and focusing on what to I still have to be grateful for helps a lot to keep me sane.

By the end of the month, I noticed that one thing I am always grateful for has been free food. People have been giving me a lot of food for some reason. I am not going to question it, but I am grateful for it!

Another thing I have been grateful for? Spending time with my young niece and nephew. I don’t have kids of my own. Having the experience of it, even if it's for just a few short minutes, is an experience I will always cherish. 

The highlight of the month for me would have to be watching Seventeen. They were in the country recently for their Right Here concert in Bulacan. I’ve been to another KPop concert before this, but this was a completely different experience for me. It was so much fun! I can’t wait to see them all again in another concert, whenever that happens! I was so happy for the chance to go out and spend time with my cousin, who is like an older sister to me. We have not had the chance to bond in years. This is definitely one of those experiences that would classify as a core memory for me. I plan on seeing j-hope in his Manila concert in April with my sister (fingers crossed). But that depends on whether or not we survive the difficult ticket-buying experience. Like a friend told me, if it’s meant to be, we’ll get to see it. If not, maybe we’ll have better luck at the BTS Reunion Concert (a girl can dream).

A co-worker of mine gave me some crystal charms for good luck. So far, they seem to be working. Whenever I want to experience or have something, as soon as I express my interest, I get it. Is this manifesting? It seems to sound like it. When I said I wanted to go to a certain resort, someone offered to tour me around. This was when it was still closed for renovations! When I said I wanted a photo card of Byeon Wooseok, someone gave me one that same afternoon. At this rate, I should already ask for one of the guys who keeps appearing in my dreams. I should make one of my rom-com fantasies come to life! 

It’s interesting how things seem to be falling into place for me. It’s like the puzzle that became our family project last month. There are so many pieces and sometimes we have to keep switching them up to find the perfect fit. I may have lost some things, but I’ve been told it’s the way of the universe to make space for the new things coming my way. Once all the pieces are in place, I can finally figure out what the big picture is for me and my life. I look forward to finding out.